Blogging reluctantly

I find myself more and more reluctant to blog. I send all of my thoughts into the blogosphere for them to sit. I find it troubling on many levels. For one I use words like blogosphere...what kind of shit is that? I'm venting to those who decide to read and wonder if they actually read. Do they understand what I'm trying to say. I vent politically to readers that agree with me. I mean I'm preaching to the converted. A real get for me if some fundamentalist Christian were to log on and go hmmmmm he's got a point.

I don't know blogging seems to be a form of literary masturbation. Getting out my jollies one quip at a time. I need to create something worth something. Until then I'm just pretending, and I don't want to pretend anymore. I need action. It's been said you gotta give action to get action. I've always found that to be very true. I need to make something out of nothing. I need to make something that is unfunny hysterical. Who else is going to do it. It's time to get off the bench and do something worth something. Stop looking on as other people make themselves happy socially, mentally, and professionally. I need a muse someone who inspires me. Gotta get me one of those.